Life. sigh.

Today would mark the day Bi arrived in Newcastle a whole month ago..

I cant believe, but surely, one month has just flew by.

I must admit that I am enjoying myself you know, coz since last year, when was the last time I could wake up late, watch tv anytime I want, Laze around all day, playing my nintendo Ds?

I work hard, so my parents wont have to tell me off about studying. One think I cannot stand is them telling me off when I dont do well, or dont study hard enough. And I managed to make them proud, for SPM, for SAM. and I managed to achieved that all by myself.

Of course I had the help from my tuition teachers and friends and of course support from parents. But how else could I have done in without self determination?

I just want to shout out that although I did fail a single paper, this doesnt mean that I dont have a brain to think alright?

Why do you think I will fall behind when next year starts?

I know my priorities, and I know why I failed too.

I have a very low esteem, and I know Im not a confident person.

But that really doesnt mean that you can make decisions for me.

Im a big girl, and really, Im upset because for the very first time in my life, I realised that Im not a small girl anymore and I know I have the right to do whatever I want in life.

I realise that no one understands me at home anymore.

I feel alone sometimes.

Which is crazy, because we used to be so close.

I dont wanna drift apart, but u have to understand that Im not a small girl anymore.

And I dont want to be treated like one, not at all.

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On a happier note..

I played Pictionary with bi today, which really cheered me up!

It was funny how we came up with so many weird drawings thanks to MSN.

=)

Currently,

We played BINGO which was really funny and we could cheat very easily , come to think bt it.lol

Played Scissors Paper Stone

Bi kept cheating with the excuse of the webcam being SLOW.

So he only showed which wan he chosed after i showed. hehe

and pictionary! hehe

me love u, so very much. thanks for cheering me up bi

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Did I mention Im having my driving test on the 20th! Wish me luck!